For a product update: One of my best friends came in town with her older two children and we spent the day at the water park. I got really red on my shoulders and on my left side, burnt! I covered my shoulders with ItWorks Defining Gel and was very pleased with the results. After just eight hours, It looked like a great tan. The left side was barley red anymore. Also, I didn't peel!
When I started taking ItWorks HSN (hair, skin and nails) my nails were terrible. they were split and damaged. After a month on HSN, my nails are long, strong and healthy!
Now for honesty time!
When my family moved to Memphis, Ben told me that his new job would have him traveling 40% more. What I didn't know what that his travels would have him in other countries with an eight hour time difference. That difference would mean that he and I could FaceTime around 12 noon and that was it. Because the kids were at school, they would not be able to talk to him. That took a toll on the kids and myself. There really is something about just knowing your spouse is there in the evenings. Even if they aren't the take over kid duties type of spouse. Knowing you're not alone is a big relief!
I began taking my frustrations and stress out on the kids. I am loud! I always have been. When getting on to the kids, I always did it in a manner that didn't sound pleasant. The difference is that now what was coming out of my mouth also matched the tone I have always had. I never used bad language or said outwardly mean things to them, but I was snarky and ugly. I remember the night I decided it was time to figure out a way to change the way I was acting. I was trying to get the kids in the car so we could go to dinner and Ben looked at me and said, "you need to calm down, you sound out of control but I know you're not." Inside my head I could hear myself yelling "yes I am! you have no idea how out of control I feel!"
To make a really long story shorter, I will share with you what I started doing differently.
* I wasn't quiet about it any more. I told My best friend, my mom, my mother-in-law and anyone else that would listen.
-They began to hold me accountable. Call and check on me and see how I was holding up. I found that knowing someone was going to call me and ask how my day was made me think twice before losing control.
* I started reading a book with my BF. It was titled She's Gonna Blow and the author compared moms to different volcanos. It was a great book.
- I didn't finish it but the first half was excellent!
* I began having my quiet time daily.
- It's amazing how out of sync you feel when you are not spending time with God!
For a while, all of those things really helped. But then came moving time. Ben was in Texarkana during the week only coming home on the weekends. I was trying to sell a house and buy a house at the same time. I was tired. ALL EXCUSES!!!
In December I went to see my Dr. I told her how I was feeling and she suggested I start taking something to help my calm down. She started me out on the generic of the lowest med and at the lowest dose. She said that because I had never been on mediation before, she didn't want to knock me out, but that I could up the dose if it was not strong enough. My BF said "you should have told her to start you at comatose and we could work our way backwards!" HA!! and TRUTH!!
It has been 7 months and things are completely different. Before, the kids would do something that was truly no big deal, and while my head would say "don't worry about it" my mouth would say
"what is wrong with you?!" Truth is, there was nothing wrong with them, they were being kids!! I called my BF (best friend) the other day and said, "I just had the strangest experience. I went outside and caught the kids doing something that was no big deal, but would have set the old me off! They looked at me with big eyes waiting for me to lose it. I laughed!" The situation was funny and then they laughed and that was it! Obviously I went into greater detail with her, but you get the point.
I have had the people closest to me tell me that they see a big difference and I love that. I did all of this for my kids! I didn't want them growing up hating me because I was a big ball of stress and didn't know how to handle it! I do plan on getting off the medication in December. I am going to begin taking ItWorks Confianza.
*Confianza is a naturally based supplement that increases your energy levels while reducing stress and fatigue. Its special blend of herbs was developed to provide a safe way to enhance your ability to cope with all forms of stress: physical, emotional, or environmental.
Confianza's proprietary blend of herbs includes many ingredients called adaptogens. Adaptogens are natural substances that work through the adrenal glands to produce adjustments in the body that help combat stress and increase your resistance to it. These ingredients in Confianza can help restore balance within your body, allowing you to better cope with the stresses in your life.
- Anti-stress formula
- Made with natural adaptogenic herbs
- Improves mental focus & concentration
- Helps the body cope with physical stress
- Provides energy and reduces fatigue
- Helps restore body balance
I have heard a lot of testimony from people who have far worse "problems" than yelling get off their medication and see huge improvements with Confianza.
I wrote the TRUTH about my issues hoping to let someone who might be dealing with the same type of thing know YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! That is the biggest thing I found out when I started being honest with other moms. The majority felt the same way I did. If you need someone to call you and hold you accountable just let me know!!
That is my long mile six story. See you on mile 7!
Kristen Carothers